i struggle a lot with making art when there’s nobody there to appreciate it.
this site has actually been one of my most successful streaks of creativity, and it’s only been going for a month and a half. i’m not sure if anyone is even seeing anything i write, but somehow i’ve kept going.
…
Duck enters the room
duck is our friend. duck helps us overcome creative struggles.
when talking about problem solving, communication practicing, i’ve heard suggestions before like “talk to a wall” or “explain the problem to your pet rock.”
well, how about making art for your rubber duck?
this is how i’ve gotten so far in my writing. i do realize i may be writing to myself, but in my head there’s this character that is somehow reading my writing on the other side of my website.
maybe i have some urge to just make the content and put the words there. all these ideas are already in my head, i just want them to be in a readable form, out there, so my online rubber duck friend can read and benefit from them.
another part is honestly for myself. i want to document my thoughts, publicly, where i can show them off if need be. there’s sort of this charm i’ve realized, of posting online where no one sees, but someone could see.
this isn’t a fully fleshed out thought, and maybe there are other reasons in my head why i don’t like posting for nobody to see, and some other way i’ve tangled my brain around to do it anyways.
TLDR make art to show to your rubber duck
that was what i was originally gonna post, but then i realized this is not at all how my brain works
i’ve been thinking about how i would show my writing or art to a rubber duck
i actually definitely would not, i would immediately think, “this duck is inanimate and i’m wasting my time 1000%, i’m basically just talking to myself about my own stuff in a useless manner”
so this is a better way of describing how the hell i’ve got out of my creative worthlessness rut:
it’s like graffiti
(bear with me lol)
i don’t make content for an imaginary character. i don’t make content for an imaginary audience. i don’t make content for a real audience (i don’t rly have one yet). i don’t make content for myself.
i make content to be out there. i make art and post it so i can sit back and look at it all and say, “look at all that great content, my content, that’s just out there. i don’t know if anyone will see it, but i’ve created beautiful things, and they’re just, there.”
i suppose it’s like the same feeling as spray-painting a wall in an alleyway or on a train
it’s different than painting something in your room, but not the same as putting art in a museum.
you finish painting and just look at it, like, wow this is sick, it’s out there, no one may care, lots of people may care, i don’t care. it just feels good to step back and be able to see my art, and know other people can see it too”
it’s kinda just like painting your house a new color, or putting art on your walls, or decorating your bedroom, writing a story for your friend, drawing commissions, uploading family videos to youtube, starting a school newspaper, attaching a perler-bead dongle to your backpack, wearing a fun, artsy, eccentric outfit in public
it’s kinda just like making art
it’s kinda all that
hopefully that gets my point across lol
have a beautiful day or night ✌️
bonk your friend with my story for brownie points